*Gasp*

A close friend, dreaming about you being in a relationship?
Not so creepy.

A closer friend, dreaming about you making out with another guy in Uni right in front of a few other friends?
Oh, the horror!! o.O"

ps: Can you guys please stop scaring me with this relationship thingy!? And can you guys please dream about yourselves??

A sad fact

"It's ok to be confused. Figure things out all you want. But until you let someone in, you'll always be alone."

Sad, but true.

Trust and relationships aren't my strong suits.
I'm not making excuses for my actions.
I'm just stating a fact about me.
I'm just not that type of person... yet.

Surprises!

Woke up today with this huge-@$$ box right in front of my room door.
i believe it's mine because there's a blue card with my name on it, attached to the box.
I carried the box into my room and it's surprisingly light for a box that size.
Anxiety began to fill my body, slowly suspecting that it could be a prank from my fellow mates.
If you live with those people, you would understand such suspicion.

So I took a blade and ripped all the tapes around the box, only to find newspapers and empty bottles in it. I felt like killing someone!
Then I decided to read the card for a clue of what's going on.
It was a belated birthday card from my hommies.
So, with renewed faith, I tried to search for any hint of a present.
I only found more newspapers, bottles and *surprise-surprise* more receipts.

Feeling extremely anxious and a little pissed of, I emptied the content of the box on my bed.
I took out all the empty bottles. I removed all the newspapers. I scrunged up all the receipts.
And finally, a rectangle item stood out.
I mean, I huge-@$$ box for a bank card-sized item?
This can't be good all at.
I felt pranked. I felt deceived. I felt like an idiot.

But what is there to lose if I just take a peek inside.
I slipped the flap on the envelope with my finger.
Lo and behold, a card!
I wished it was someone's credit card with unlimited cash flow.
But this is better!
A gift card!
For shopping! Shoe shopping!
I felt happy. I felt loved. I am CONTENTED!

ps: Inside the envelope it is written "To Amy Chong Voon Sing. From Shikin, Anita & Sharmyn. Due to unforseen circumstances, your present has become a card and is exactly 1 month late. Happy 22nd and 1 month birthday. Amount: NZD 50.00

The Mirror

Take a look in the mirror.
Who do you see?

Do you see someone you want to be?
Do you see someone living their dreams?
Do you see someone happy with what they have?
Do you see someone proud of their achievements?
Do you see someone who is not afraid to be themselves?

Tell me.
Who do you see?

Ps: Had this thought as I was trying really hard to fix my eye-covering fringe for school.

Dreams

For those that have watched Inception, you would understand that anything can happen in a dream. But there are somethings that are so foreign that you could never picture it happening in your dreams or dreams of others.

So yea, when a friend mentioned that he dreamed that I'm in a relationship with someone, it sounded really weird and awkward because the whole idea seemed so foreign to me.

But I was kinda disappointed that he haven't gotten far enough to check out who the Dude was. Now, that my friends, is something I'm used to >.<

Unforgiveness

Forgiveness is not for the offender, but it's for the offended.

Unforgiveness is like becoming a slave. The offender will gain control of our lives because our actions or goals are driven by our resentment and revenge.

Unforgiveness is like a burden. The offended would carry the hurt, pain and disappointment throughout life – a liability that weighs us down.

Unforgiveness is like a parasite. Inability to forgive sucks the soul and life of the offended, leaving us vulnerable to harm and anger.

Forgiveness is not for the offender, but it's for the offended.